[Mil]

Hello - when I first started reading your post I thought 'oh my goodness, that could have been me writing that 35 yrs. ago! I too was 19, broke up with my long-time boyfriend, got pregnant in a much more 'casual' relationship, went back with my long-time boyfriend and then actually found out I was pregnant. I was sure the father of my baby was not someone I wanted in my life anymore. I was considering adoption and my boyfriend hung around. I loved that little baby inside me sooo much.

I think billysmom had some great advice for you. I think you shouldn't take your boyfriend into consideration in this decision at all. Boyfriends come and go. Yes, it would be hard not to have him in your life FOR A WHILE, but not having your son in your life would be FOR A LIFETIME would be a million times harder. Could you live with yourself if you gave your child up because of him? Don't make this decision about him!

I'm not saying to keep your baby or relinquish him. No one can tell you that. But I think you really want to keep him. There is no easy decision. I would NEVER want to be put in that position again! It was by far the hardest decision I ever made. BTW, I decided to place my son. But that was is another era. It wasn't the norm to keep your baby back then. It ripped my heart out. I'm now in reunion with him for the past 8 yrs. But that's me. You have your parent's support (I didn't) and therefore you actually DO have a choice.

I don't envy you this tough decision and I realize I'm just rambling as your post brought back a lot of memories. Good luck to you in whatever you decide to do. Please let us know how you're doing!