[LasVegasMom]

I have never ever been able to "cope" with relinquishing my son. Was by far the hardest thing I've ever done and has colored my entire adult life. I have two beautifully spoiled raised children and one biological son whom I relinquished in 1980 during the closed era. I have three children, my relinquished son who is now 28, and my daughter-19, and youngest son 16 and yes i call them all my babies much to their utter horror. I'm not sure if I would have done anything differently because my life is all I know but I do know that I too have been SUPERMOM TO THE RESCUE. Let's see, room mother, Girl Scout Leader, Team Mom for both Drill team and peewee football, Scorekeeper for baseball, and all around "dependable, organized Mrs. G" who (I have always hoped) is the epitome of what mothers should be! I have always run in a single bound to either of my children crying, have an excess of bandaids and neosporin on hand, made sure to have family outings, family dinners, etc. This is who I am so I don't know any other way but if I am 100% honest, yes, I have been the overachiever mom because I wanted to prove to myself I was capable of being a good mom. I wanted others to see it and most importantly of all, I wanted my relinquished child to see it if he ever chose to come back into my life. I know that my raised children are happy, well adjusted, and good people. I feel I did a great job, a bit paranoid, a bit crazy, but in that place where deep down I felt like I had to be supermom I created a safe and loving environment for my kids to be themselves. I love being a mom to all 3 of my kids, my 2 raised and my 1 relinquished son. I am equally nutty with all of them but like I said that is who I am and I know no other way!