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You are not alone - and really, you haven't been in your situation very long...7 months is a short amount of time. Most of the time this whole situation is not a hallmark card - can you really be expected to fall in love instantly...I don't believe in love at first sight for adults or children. In older child adoption especially, that little guy came to you with 'stuff' - his own baggage and of course, we all have baggage...sometimes it's tough to add all that baggage together - it's a big load.
There isn't a magic number for when you'll know. Talk with your family - be open about things. I spent a long time trying to hide that I wasn't 'there' yet (heck, don't know if I'm there yet now, but my kids have AD...adds to the issues)...it's not your fault or his fault or anyone's fault. Think about it this way - "if this is as good as it will get with him...will you be OK with that?"...ours was an international adoption...there wasn't time to think things through. There are days I still ask myself that question. I think it's better to assume you are at the peak then at the bottom of the hill. I certainly hope you can find peace - but please, oh please, try, try, try to let go of the guilt. It doesn't help anyone!
Again, you are NOT alone or crazy or weird...
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