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I've found the cycle of anger towards my kids' bmom comes and goes. I deal with a piece at a time and then I just have to put it away for awhile so I can focus on my kids. Not that I let it show or anything, but just so I can really clear my mind to put my energies on them.

The coming and going is simply due to new issues that might arise and when they do, I get angry all over again.

I do recommend that you vent safely and not let it build up. Talk to other moms who know what it feels like to look at their children and know that there are things that still affect them due to the harm they've suffered. It's not a good "circle" to be in, but it can help to have others to share with.