[Samonster]

Hello, Yeah Im still kicken around.

Life has be hard. Just awarked really. I have no ambition to do anything. I really wish that after my period of not writing I could come forth with even a shread of progress, well the fact that Im still here.
Life moves slow when you in pain im guessing, well this I know. The days feel like months and the months fell like years, but when I look at the calender it feels like years. I don't know what to do in my free time. My life is consumed by school and work. haha I started crying at work today, that was fun.

Im filled with all this meternal instinct and I dont know what to do with it, so I went out and bought two rats knowing that they will die. Not now I know this but there not exactly a long term pet =[.

I just long to take care of something, someone, anyone..

As Ive been saying here and in "Real Life" I will be better in time..

God I hope that I am right and that some day I will be..

Ive now come to the conclusion that life as it is, is a waiting game.


I made the statement the other day that I just have to see her. Its a must. I miss her.