[a_christyne]

is that when I do finally have a child I can raise and call my own.. I won't love them as much as I love my son who I put up for adoption. That having them will only make me miss him more and I'll wish they were him instead.. I feel so incredibly guilty for thinking these things..

Someone please tell me I'm not the only one who's felt this way. Someone please tell me this will go away soon.. I don't want to be scared like this forever, or feel guilty forever.