I am an Amom... just sending u a (((HUG)))
. Yes, I know something like that would hurt. My DD is 4 so I am not there yet but just reading your post made my heart clinch a little. In my head I know that we all have BIG HEARTS with enough love for lots of different people in our lives. Feelings for one does not add or subtract the feelings for another. But the heart tells a different story. There are several good books out there. There is one that some of the Amom's on Guat forum read. I believe it was "primal wound"... I read part of it, and it is a little hard to take. But still might help u understand DD from a different perspective.
Opening the adoption is a WONDERFUL gift that your are giving your DD. While not easy @ this time she will be FOREVER grateful to you later. YOU DESERVE LOTS OF
for your strength and your love that you are showing your precious child. I couldn't tell my parents growing up... didn't see it. BUT I DO KNOW that I am older and constantly sing there praises and tell them how much there actions meant to me.
HANG IN THERE...
