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Originally Posted by Emberbit
If she had asked me to keep a pregnancy journal, I would have given her a flat out "no" and I wouldn't have been very nice about it either.
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I would *like* to think that I would have been this firm, but I'm afraid there's a part of me that would have agreed, because I would have been afraid to start the relationship off on a bad foot.
Having said that - the pregnancy was mine - my experiences and my memories that I hope to be able to share with Cupcake on my own time. It's perhaps the only time that it will ever be just the two of us - the only memories that I don't have to share with someone else.
I imagine I would have had immeasurable regret had I shared those moments.....sometimes as an emom, before placement, before you say goodbye, you don't realize how precious they are (please note, I said "sometimes" - I think there are parts of the pregnancy experience I took for granted as I was so swept up in the crisis, fear, etc. That's just ME though)...looking back today, they're the most special memories of my life, and I'm thankful that I didn't share them so openly.