[jarian]

I'm sure this post should be on another forum totally, but I feel more comfortable with the people here on adoption.com. Do you ever feel like people want you to be who they want you to be and they dismiss your feelings as if they mean nothing? Do you ever feel like you're losing your identity or having to always explain your thoughts and feelings when others don't? Sometimes being a wife, I actually feel like I'm more my husband than myself. When I talk to my mom, etc., she wants me to think the way she thinks. My husband and I are about to foster and decided we want a sibling group of two. I have had a few single women with children tell me I'm crazy for wanting to start out with two children and I don't know how hard it really is raising one child and now I want two. And then one person went as far as telling me that she's not totally happy being a mother and that it may not be for me either. Then she told me men are lazy and I'll be doing it all myself. I have known since I was a child that I wanted children and I don't need anyone telling me that children aren't for me. My mom raised three children by herself and was just fine. I am a quiet and reserved person and my inlaws and hubby are very outgoing. When I come around, my inlaws always try to make me be like one of them. It's so frustrating when people won't let me be myself. I'm a homebody, I love to read, I want as many children as God will allow, I like my job, and I love my home life and husband. I don't like the spotlight and I never want to be the life of the party. I'm not stuck up or uptight, I'm just quiet. People love me, but they seem to think my quiet life is no fun and apparently they think I don't like my quiet life because they don't like their lives simple. Why can't I just be me and people accept that. I allow people to be who they are nothing more. Just a rant...