[mommy3]

Sending you support while you wait. It's SO hard to be the one waiting and you can only do SO much. When we were waiting for our dd, we'd make an agreement with our dd's birthmother for her to call at a certain time or day and if she'd be late, I'd fret and practically get sick with worry. I'd later find that she had her appt. moved (and didn't want to "bother me", eek) or something would have come up that postponed her call. It'd make sense later, but in the moment I'd go crazy. Not having control over things can be hard and just about drive you batty, but try to stay focused on what you CAN do. I learned that the greatest lessons of adoption were that I was being guided but that I was not in charge. I had to relearn these almost every day. Yes, sometimes things do fall apart but that isn't in your control totally either. Try to not watch the clock and stay busy with other things if you can. May your time pass swiftly and may this expectant mom call! susan