[kakuehl]

Dear Sam,
You have many of us who care about you waiting to hear how you are today. I have been thinking about all that you hae shared since you joined... and thinking how, while I've lived with 36 years with my decision to place D for adoption, I've never experienced all that you have gone through. Your life appears to be short on unconditional love (or love of any kind), while difficult as my decision was I never experienced a lack of love and support in my life. Your love for Opal and hers for you is such a unique part of your life. That's why it hurts so much now. I hope, like the others, that you will choose to live to be a birth mother Opal can be proud of. Even in the midst of your pain, you do have choices. (to choose life or death, to choose to get help moving through grief, or to continue in this living death where you are today.) Again, please know that you have found a place where we care deeply about you even though we've never met you in person. We are all hoping (and praying) that you choose to live and to make your incredible sacrifice one that has value for you and for Opal. Become the person that you were created to be, continue to reach out to us with your eloquent words and know that you are not alone. (As always, feel free to PM or IM me. )