Sam, I have been trying to figure out what to say to you for ten hours now. Your posts have touched me deeply, and I'm so worried about you.
Like Kathy said, there are no words in our language that can describe the depth of the pain you're feeling right now. But many of us have gone through the same pain when we surrendered our babies. Reading what you're going thru right now is bringing back so many memories for me.
One thing I can tell you, and other people may disagree with me, but that's okay because I know it's true for me. This is as bad as it gets...this is the hardest thing you will ever go through during your life. If you can just hang on and get thru this part, you will never have to feel this much pain again. This is as hard and as tough as life gets, sweetie.
You're a survivor, Sam...hold on for Sam and hold on for Opal. You owe the both of you that much, and I know you can do it.
