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My guess is, that your parents fear and hurt is there if you search or not. Your search may bring it to the surface, but that is their issue, and you shouldn't make it yours. Please, please don't misunderstand what I am saying. Of course you don't want to hurt people you love, AND, you should be very sensitive to what they're feeling, as they would you. Treat them with respect, honesty, and reassurance, which it sounds like you already do.
I would imagine if your parents would read this, they would encourage you to follow your heart, and to let them worry and deal with their issues. We all have hidden fears and hurts that life deals us. I bet your parents would be the first to tell you that you aren't responsible for this, and should do what you think is right. We all have things to work through, it doesn't mean issues should be avoided.
Best of luck, and know that most adoptees feel the same way.
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