[dawnrenee58]

It was so strange for me to have a newborn. I remember thinking if I can make it until he is 11 months old, it will all be ok, because Timo came home at 11 months, so I had BTDT. There are many things I am sad I missed with Timo. But, I just am glad he is here, and try not to dwell too much on what I missed. I tell people they are both my miracle kids. TImo because only 45 kids came here from Nicaragua the year he did, and the odds were so against us ever bringing him home. Marco because I was not supposed to ever be able to get pregnant. Both miracles, and I feel that deep in my soul. Timo was born being a member of our family, even if we didn't know it yet. I guess I can "get over" the things I missed because I know it was what had to happen in order for him to be with us.