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I never thought about the idea that my daughter might be trying to pull back the attention from my mom. That should probably have been my first thought since she's done so much crap in the past.
I guess I've just been so stressed about life in general and all the stuff going on with my mom that I didn't even think about that.
The one thing about my daughter, is she's told me something like this (not necessarily being preg but other stuff) and mentions it a few times and then doesn't say a word about something again for a LONG time. Then when I ask her about it way later she doesn't remember ever saying certain things.
So, she could just be telling me this because she wants to get that attention. I don't know. But I'm not acknowleging it yet. Maybe that's why she's continuing to mention it every time we chat online. (I still haven't spoken to her on the phone yet since she left the area).
No she doesn't send me pictures or allow me to even talk to my grandchildren. She occationally tells me things they are doing and trouble they've caused but that's about it. I rarely hear anything possitive about them. I've begged for pictures she just never sends them.
The taking it one day at a time is something I try to do but sometimes I can't even get through without going one hour or one minute at a time.
I keep telling myself, "I've gotten this far. Keep going. Just one more minute. You can get through ONE more minute." Other times I can go longer times but everyday just seems worse than the last and sometimes I feel so overwhelmed and ready to give up I don't know what to do except to lay down and hope I don't wake up.
I've had a severe headache for 2 days now. I haven't even been able to get to the hospital to be with my mom because I'm too dizzy to drive and even if my husband took me there I might still pass out and I can't do that to myself or my mom.
My mom understands but she is now worried about me more than she should be. I know I'll be ok but these migraines just happen and sometimes they bring on seizures. I have to wait this out.
I just hope when she gets home I can take care of her and without these kinds of headaches coming on too often. I hate them. They are incapacitating. I'm just glad I have some help here from my youngest daughter when my mom does get home.
My daughter decided to take a quarter off school (she's in college) so she can help me get into a routine with my mom and help me in doing everything we need to do so I can possibly do more of it by myself when she is in school. I'm so thankful for my youngest daughter being so willing to give up things she's doing to help me and her grandma. She's a great girl!
Rylee
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