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Originally Posted by LasVegasMom
Teri,
You hit the nail on the head. Since my reunion, along with a myriad of all sorts of feelings, I have felt restless. I changed my hair back to it's original color, I've lost weight, I've been trying to change jobs. I've been feeling like I need to do SOMETHING different and I really believe I have changed. It is scary to my husband and my other children, but lucky enough for me that I have built a great network of loving family around me and they love me no matter what. I sometimes feel like a 45 year old 17-year old and I'm glad to know I'm not the only one and I'm not crazy. I feel like I have unfinished business to attend to, and I need to get to it now. This is all because of my reunion. I have changed, but I hope in a good way. Nobody tells you about this, nobody tells you that you will be stuck in time and one day you will fall backwards 20 or 25 or in my case 27 years. It has been difficult but cathartic.
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AH the feeling like you are two people in one, the multiple ages in one.
At one point I physically felt like I was 15/16, I could feel my younger self, feel her pain. Feel her fighting to get out and find her baby. She only wanted her baby. I was looking for my child.
It truely was like there was another person inside me. She was still that young mother whose baby was gone. She was in such pain since in the 1960/70s they didn't allow you to express your pain. You were suppose to forget it ever happened.
I felt I was becoming the person I was supposed to be before I locked her away inside of me.
Hugs