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Thanks guys. This is so hard for me because most of the time I feel like I'm doing/allowing this *because* I'm hurt and angry and not because it's really the best thing for her. When I feel like that, I also feel like they very much deserve one another.
Other times I feel that I'm letting her down by not doing everything I can to make things work. That this is another in a series of bad decisions on my part.
Mike, you called me a strong, confident woman-which is a huge compliment and I really appreciate it. But right now that doesn't feel true at all. At the moment I think I'm more of the simpering mindless twit hoping someone is going to come along and rescue her. I keep hoping that someone will show up-any minute now-but no one does.
And God, how pathetic does that sound?
Sarah
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Mom to  B, 17 yrs.
9/21/07 - Placed for 'transitional visits'.
10/3/07 - Placed officially for adoption.
1/29/08 - Officially my daughter.
9/26/08 - B called in an abuse report on me because she refused to do her chores and didn't want to get a job. I'm not allowed to require her to do either one.
12/18/08 - B refused to live in my home anymore and chose to return to a former foster family.
1/18/09 - Former foster family refused to keep B any longer.
1/20/09 - Former foster family decided that they would keep B since I was going to place her in a therapeutic shelter and then Job Corps.
1/22/09 - Former foster family called abuse report in on me in retaliation for the loss of their foster license.
1/29/09 - Placed on leave from job with CPS.
2/10/09 - Notified that my employment will be terminated on 2/20/09.
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