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Originally Posted by lovemy2boys
Gratitude is one of those funny words...isn't it?
NO ONE needs to be told how they 'should' feel. UGH...
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Yes! That is probably what really stuck it to me!! Our relationship was moving along pretty nice and then all of a sudden . . .I'm supposed to be grateful she didn't abort me came out of her mouth and suddenly, i wasn't feeling the love that she expected. Ever since meeting my birth mother, I have been feeling very grateful that I had the family i did, imperfect as they were, grateful that i met my husband, grateful that i have the kids i have. None of that would have been possible if not for the initial decision to relinquish me . . .however, i'm still not grateful to my birthmom for signing those papers. It just feels wrong to me somehow to be ok with it 100% in my heart - she never held me, she was old enough to parent me and my grandmother didn't want me. I can't say thank you no matter how much gratitude is in my heart. Maybe some day . . . .