It seems that I am having a harder time with this placement than anyone. I am really missing my little family, the way that it was. It is hard that since my fosters are the same as my older boys, I haven't seen very much of my kids since the placement.
We are normally a very huggy, kissy family that loves spending time together. My kids all used to yell "Mommy!" and practically knock me over when they got home. Tonight they ran right past me without saying a word. None of them have spent more than 5 minutes talking to me in a week. It's so hard because the fosters don't want to be with me, and my kids want to be with them, so I am out of the picture.
My DH tells me that it is a passing phase and everything will go back to normal, but I'm just devestated and really missing my kids. I knew there would be challenges, but nobody ever mentions that I would become so unimportant to my own children.
