I/We have been in your shoes - it is hard to face the reality of the dream literally dissipating in front of you each day - our hearts and hugs are with you.
And - it's ok to feel what you are experiencing - sad but ok - I remember the shame of the feeling "no - he cannot ever come back here brings" so I understand and care!
Keep posting - this board helped me through that time (and others too) more than I can ever explain - just coming her to learn and hear about others and know they care - they (we) do!!!
