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So, Friday night I signed the custody agreement. It needs signatures of the former foster parents, so I've got the original with me. I've tried and tried to reach them on Friday night so I could bring it and the rest of B's things on Saturday. Spend the day with the attorney friend on Saturday and never hear back from them. She figures they are avoiding me. She's right.

I spoke to the adult sister that works here today, the one that is one of the root causes of the problem. Well, the roots that don't rest with B herself anyway, or me, if I'm honest. I'm not perfect or blameless.

Anyway, seems that all is not sunshine and roses over there. B's had bad attitude, been trash talking and behaving inappropriately. They are now not sure if this is going to work at all. And the adult sister apologized to me, because at first she thought that I was being mean and had really kicked B out of the house. They've caught B in some lies now, and that sort of thing, that changed her mind.

I told her that before they decided to just pack her up and send her home that we all needed to sit down and talk to her together about Job Corps. And I told her that it was because I didn't want B back in my home. Sigh.

I was just beginning to unknot and uncoil that ball of tension and stress. I truly think that having shared with the adult sister that she's not wanted here now will have some impact and they will not want to send her away, at least for a while.

On the plus side, one of the caseworkers here, who I adore, has worked with the residential treatment side of things for years before she came to do regular casework. She'll walk me through getting her into a facility if they try to send her home because with her history and now failing in a therapeutic home (even unofficially) all she'll have to do is say that's what she wants/needs and they can make it happen. Plus she recommended the Sheriff's Boys/Girls Ranches here, so I have some hope at least.

I feel horrible saying that I don't want her back in my home, but... I really don't. I can't trust her at all anymore and I'm still so angry at her for the abuse report that I can't be a good parent to her.

Hoping for some good advice and support here.

Sarah