Lost
I found my bdaughter 5 years ago. Things were going well. We had seen each quite a few of times. She is 23 and still very influenced by her amom. She was about to come visit and then wham she cancelled. She said she wanted to keep things 'low key' cuz she could tell our relationship was hurting her amom.
In some respects try to understand, but i feel very disrespected by her amom. Her amom told me once that she had sent me a letter a couple of months after the adoption and that should have given me closure. I don't think closure was ever possible. I don't think she respects the sacrifice I made. I feel so vulnerable like I was when I was 15 and pregnant. Like her amom just thinks I'm trashy and she did me a favor.
Help. Please pray for me that I can get over this anger and love her amom, despite how she feels about me. She raised my bdaughter very well. She has given her so much love and all that my bdaughter ever needed.
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