[kakuehl]

Didi, Does the medical school have counseling services? I know that the college I attended did. (I "got" to go when I was pregnant with D and choosng adoption.) The seminary where I did my master's also had counseling available.

Sometimes it just feels like everything you face just adds to the misery doesn't it. Have you asked your friend about his choices? (Saying something like I was really hoping to be part of your wedding party because I really want to support you on your weddeng day...) I had a friend once who wanted me to play flute for his wedding, but his bride nixed it. He did let me know what he had wanted which made me feel good, even though it didn't happen.)

You are obviously a talented young woman. (Med schools don't take dummies!) I pray that you will be able to find that self-worth, so that you don't need to punish yourself.