Oh, I'm so sorry. We do get our hopes up and then they are totally crushed and it hurts, I'm sorry.
I'm trying to think the way my bmom is behaving, not allowing anyone to speak of me, is not about me, it's about her but it does feel totally personal to me! It hurts.
You have every right to know who your dad is. I'm sorry you amom said those things to you.
Hang in there and never, ever give up.
