I had some similar revelations when my bmom responded to my contact letter. I had no idea I had those feelings until I found her. I thought all I wanted was my medical history and to see some pictures of birth family. I was very wrong and to actually have feelings for her was overwhelming, confusing and painful. The last few months have been hard but I have learned alot about myself and feel like I know me better than ever. It definately explains alot.
This forum has been great and I found a local support group that I will start attending. I also started a blog mostly for me to just journal.
Hang in there! it's a ride and one I don't regret getting on at all.
