[lglysson]

I am sorry you are going through a rough time. I believe you will be better off going through this tough time and dealing with it in the long run. I am a birthmom and the biggest motivation for my relinquishing my daughter was a complete love for her. I loved her so much that I wanted the best for her. I know now that she has had a wonderful life and I am so glad of that. We don't have an open reunion but I did send her a Christmas card she will get in a couple of days. In it I told her how happy I was that she had my eyes, and that I am here for her and I am not going anywhere. It's funny those were 2 things you struggle with. I hope that my telling her this gives her peace.
You are in my prayers.
Blessings
PS-Thank you for being so open with what you are going through, it helps me to know what my daughter might be going through.