[RNFosterMom]

Two extremely important qualities in a foster parent, I've found, are patience and objectivity. Unfortunately, I seem to lack these qualities, especially the first one! Perhaps if I do not go insane first, I will develop them?

I am always wondering what's going to happen to these poor little kids. When the parents have their ups and downs with their case plans, my mind wanders into the future -- how long will they be with us? Where will they end up? Are family members going to come forward tomorrow? Will these parents get/keep it together and get/keep their kids?

I KNOW it makes no sense to do this, and I have also learned never to listen to what a caseworker tells me because they are usually wrong, but still I find myself doing it. Perhaps I was drawn to foster parenting as a penance for my control freak tendencies?