Lyndz,
I must say i read your story and i started to cry my heart bleeds for you. I see allot of myself in your story i saw these things happen to my mother cause of her drug use my father was a geat man but the drug dealers were not, my daughter is a product of rape and i feel the hatred and betrayal of it and of others and how they use to judge me and my reaction to things. I found my rapist and contacted him in some weird way he still has controll over me i know why you are the way you are with your step dad i cant excplain why we do it. Please know one thing that i have come to realize you are a beautiful and loveing women stronger then any man or thing i look up to you and your strenght i envy your honesty and openess and i wish i had the strength you seem to carry so easily, i hold you in my heart as my seceret hero you will be a great mother a loveing and kind mother and you are very smart and very loved i send you all my love and prayers i pray for your protection and happiness thank you for sharing it has really touched me..Im sorry way off subject in this thread.
