Everything is so raw right now. You recently gave birth, your hormones are all over the place, and you are apart from your baby. For me, the first year was the very hardest, and the worst of it was leaving the hospital without my child and those weeks right after. I placed my son for similar reasons as you did, among other reasons. I still believe I made the right decision. For me, the pain lessened in time, and I never regretted my decision (just my circumstances). I did get a lot of counseling, however. It is very hard to go through this alone. There is a lot of support here, but I also think it is important to talk to someone face to face, and if you can find a birthmother support group, that would be good, too. You will not forget your child.
