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i understand
HI lyngan,
i totally understand your not being that excited about being pregnant. i myself just plain cant get pg, never miscarried, had our bio son when i was 18 and then after that we tryed for 4 years, we did 1 IVF, tryed a second one, my eggs are apparently too old. although i'm only 25!!! but anyways, now that we have moved on to adoption, i dont know what i would do if i were pg. i have just came to terms that i wont have anymore bio children and that is fine with me. i was sooooo sick of all the pitty parties and the "your trying too hard to get pg lectures" and now i try not to let the nasty,rude remarks bother me. I mean, i have also been told a million times that now that you are pursueing adoption, i will forsure get pg. i am kinda scared if i do because my agency will not allow us to adopt if i find out im pg unless we have a match and the birthmom is completely okay with it. i want a child more than anything and i dont think that people realize that adoption isnt second best, we chose that because we are able to love any child, not just "our own" we could've went on and on with infertility treatments, but i've just came to the reality that having a baby would just come from a different way. i didnt want more stretch marks and sore breasts anyways!!! LOL
I hope you are doing better and coming to terms with your pregnancy. Good luck with everything. Rach
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