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"DO know is that the one constant in life is that "everything changes". All of the time. Everyday. And that some given day my circumstances may change. Maybe not, but maybe yes. But just for today all I can do is self-evolve in order to be the person that I was meant to be in all of my own goodness. I can share this goodness with anyone who appears in my path and I can be ready at any given moment for contact by those in my own history so that they may too meet the best Me that I am". Thank you,those are really true and beautiful words. I have to believe that maybe with time her feelings will change and so I will be ready if I don't let my hurt feelings get in the way. 2 weeks have past since I received the letter from her, I'm already thinking more realistically and not so emotionally. It still hurts but I'm trying to understand from her side that she loves her adopted family and that she is just trying to be honest with me that she is their daughter and not mine. She only wants to be a friend. It's just not so easy, but nothing in life is simple, I feel like my head has been rammed into a wall. So now I will pull back a little, which I think is my own way of not allowing myself to get hurt over and over again. I think it would make it easier on her if she let me meet her adopted father and family, but she doesn't want that and I think that must make this situation so much more stressful for her. I prefer openess with everything , but we are not all the same and so I will continue along and see with the changes in time where this journey will take me. You sound like a wonderful person and you are so right just try be the good honest person you can be and share that with the people that cross your path. I understand your hurt too.
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