[Pursuingmydream]

I hate to take Little Mama to the ER on Sunday she was vomiting uncontrobally. I happened to take her to the hospital closest to my house and to my surprise some of the nurses knew who she was by sight (she has been there many times).

Little Boy Blue is another story, he wanted to be held by every nurse that entered the room and when they left he would start crying, screaming and fall out on the floor. This happened seven times. Finally when the last nurse came in because she heard him screaming I asked her to leave the room because he was just going to cry when she left and guess what he did just that. He repeated the same behavior in the drugstore.

THis baby has serious abandonment issues, he will not stay in a different room from me, he even wakes up and gets into my bed nightly.

I talked to the CPS worker and explained that I have to disrupt this because I feel that he needs more care than I can provide. Only with that I told her that his bio mom had to have been leaving him alone for long periods of time because he is desperate for attention from women. I really did not expect her to take what i was saying to heart (just thought she would not care), but she was as disturbed as I was and agreed to look for a couple that could take these two in. So I am waiting to find out when they will be moved. I will not take a sibling group for awhile though. I think I am gonna do one kid at a time for right now.

Okay I am done now..