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Happy Sunday Raven,
If you don't mind me asking...what was it that made you feel that the only way out was to die? I have also been pretty rock bottom, alone, homeless, desperate and all out pathetic in my own drug induced despair in the past, but I think I was just too scared to try and end things myself. I kept praying that God take me out of this place. I guess that wasn't the in plan so I quit asking. I don't know. Maybe, I held on to some kind of hope..maybe, some just can't see any light at the end of the tunnel, so to speak. Maybe that IS the light at the end of the tunnel for them!?! I so want to understand this.
I have thought about other people's situations and especially about my husband's nephew. He sat in his car outside his ex girfriend's house and shot him self in the heart! 19 yeras old!!! Like that was the only thing he had to live for. He was such a cool kid.
I don't understand feeling so drastic because someone decided they didn't want to go out with you anymore. That is what I think some of this is about right now. My son went out with this girl he really liked for about a month and she dedcided that she couldn't be in a relationship with him right now. That...I don't get. To want to die because of someone else's opinion. I do understand wanting to check out for other reasons though. I have known that kind of darkness. I have come to realize over the years, as most do, things always work themselves out...one way or another.
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