[kakuehl]

Hi,
I think all of us have times when the need for mom hits (mine's been dead for 12 years and sometimes I just really need her.) Add to that the emotions of adoption. I think al of us have our ups and downs; yours is certainly a sad story and hard; I understand the anger! I'm glad you have mostly worked through it.

Do you know the hospital where you were born? I was able to find my son because we had both registered here. Because it was easy for me (when I finally looked), I'm not the best one to tell you what you need. I know in some states you can apply for "non-identifying" information. Hopefully, some one will have better help!