I have been so busy in the fields trying to get late beans combined, I have not had a chance to check in on you. I am so happy you had a beautiful happy healthy daughter, Opal most definately is a gem. I hope you will read your last post, and read it over and over again. You will see that even though you think you are doing the right thing...this may not be so , after all. Your feeling show anything but being SURE. Your hormones are way out of whack, and no-one can make a healthy decisin when it is like this. Take your daughter and spend time with her...no one else, and when the signing date comes, if you can WHOLE- HEARTEDLY, let her go ...then YOU will know it was right. I am willing to bet , that MOST Firstmoms on these boards wish they could go back and do so. Most of us were told nothing of this being an option, and I am sure they have told you , BASICALLY the same. Who is THIS better for? If you think this is tough, give 18+ more years. Sure the pain lessens but your heart is left with an empty hole tha will NEVER be filled. Most of us Firstmoms, will admit to this being so. Unless you are abusive, a drug addict, and a horribly mean person...you ARE CAPABLE and able to keep Opal. You and only you can decide. Am I being pushy...yes. Am I hoping to see you do what is best for your daughter...yes. I just think ALL of us want was is best for our children, I just think that what is best, is she knows and bonded ONLY with you. Opal noe knows she is grieving and confused for her Mommy. She is , because it can be no other way. Yes, she will eventually bond with a new , good Mommy, but she at this time only knows the Mommy she bonded with, is a good Mommy and she doesn't know where you are....Please take her and spend the next week or so with her, then You WILL make an INFORMED decision. I only want the best for OPAL. I know you are a good Mommy, loving , caring, and wonderful person, who can raise her child, and overcome ALL you have endured. I am so happy to have gotten to know you, and I also know, that no matter what...you will make the right choice. Just try not to think of her future parents, or anything else...just ask yourself...what would Opal tell you...if she could talk...this will be your RIGHT answer. All ELSE WILL FOLLOW.
