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A few weeks ago, someone, a stranger, asked me if I was happy to be a mom. She asked me at a moment when I was physically and emotionally exhausted - I wasn't "happy" about anything.
But in no way, shape or form does that ever take away from the joy that I feel being my DS mom, nor the pride and honor I take in having him in my life. He is the apple of my eye.
I think that your emotions are perfectly in check. You have suffered a great deal of loss (for which I am sorry) and so at this time of year, sometimes, that wound is a little tender.
That does not take away from your love for your child or even your appreciation to have him in your life today and to be able to have this special FIRST Christmas together.
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~Ana, Mami of Alberto
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