[nurse_reedle]

That even if we get a placement that the baby is going to be taken from us for some reason at the last minute. That we will think somehting is inconsquential or that we will forget something or make a decision the e-mom doesn't like but never discussed (especially if we never even thought about discussing it!) and the baby will be taken from us. I used to have all these fears so extreme that we went with international adoption the first time...I felt much better this time around about domestic adoption and have had a lot of peace about our decision. I feel like that rug was just ripped out from under me. I have known all along there could be problems, a changed mind...all kinds of things...but thinking about a baby already with us and then losing it...that makes me so sad. I know it happens. Now I am PETRIFIED that it will be because of something *we* will do if it happens.