Sam, please, please, please call Brenda and talk things over before signing those papers.
Your words and feelings that you've expressed so painfully here bring up so many memories for me. I had forgotten that feeling of emptiness after I left the hospital without my baby son. It's hard enough getting used to not being nine months pregnant, but with the milk coming in? That was a horrible reminder each and every day of what I had lost. I always wondered if my son was crying to be fed whenever my milk started leaking.
Please talk to Brenda, and see if there are any options for you. We care...a lot. Please keep posting here. We can't tell you what to do. But we can certainly help you not feel so alone. God bless, and take care of yourself...be gentle with yourself.
