[Goudvis]

I feel I've really tried, tried to keep this relationship going and trying to make it work. I think I've really also tried to see things from her side, but I feel that she has me like a puppet on a string, one minute everything is going well and just when I feel relaxed about the whole thing then something like this brings the whole realtionship crashing down. I lost focus just about with everything when she 1st contacted me, and just can't let that happen again. I have work, I have my own family, so I will just send a birthday and christmas card each year, no more money and gifts. Hopefully this just keeps the relationship open and when and if she decides that she would like to contact me she will.