[Sam-N-Tony]

Okay, I'm trying to figure out what to do. My husband and I after 6 years of marriage and almost 11 years together have decided to seperate and divorce. It was immenent. The stress of the foster kids plus, our already existing and new problems have caused to become too much.

There are no arguments and no tension (at least on my end) this is something that I have known was going to happen it was just a matter of when. We are in 2 complete different places in our lives.

This is where my dilemma is, I want to continue to foster just on a smaller scale. I have always been the one to handle all the foster kids stuff, so I have mainly been the go to person for everything, all my CW will say the same. My husband never gets involved (other than some of the daily things). He will be moving out after the holidays.

I have already talked to Mr. Peabody's CW and we both agree he needs a higher level a care. So he will start working on that.

Mr. Touchy should be r/u in this month, if Dad does well with his brother. Even though he has been with me for 16 months, if he were to come back I'm on the fence of taking him back. He is a difficult child but I love him regardless. If he comes back, adoption is not guaranteed, he has 3 other siblings that they will want to have adopted together. I think it would be easier to just not take him back.

Baby Don King, I love and really want to keep and adopt him. It will be at least a year before anything is figured out with him. Mom might be right outside of time line to finish her program and caseplan. They are already asking her to relinquish. I know she won't. We have a really good relationship, so it is a real possibility to adopt.

I know I need to tell my licensing agency but don't know if I should tell them to shut my house down or what. I have been really tempted to just refocus on my son and figure out where my life is headed (and the thought of silence without any little kids is very tempting).

What would you do???