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Originally Posted by QueenEsther
and you might need to talk.
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How did you know. It has been such a long week. The emotional ups and downs are tough sometimes. I am trying to meet the need of everyone in my house (including myself). I have been tring to spend a little one on one time with each child everyday. Even my dog is feeling the effects. I have had to play with her outside at 6 in the morning because that is the only time I can fit her in.
Jt is feeling like she is not getting enough attention. I had a long talk with her last night. I know its hard for her going from an only child to one of 6 in a matter of two days. I told her I am still there to listen and be there for her when she needs me. I have tried to explain to her that the other children do need a lot of attention right now. None of that matters though, all that matters is that she feels like she is not getting her needs met. I told her I would try a little harder to pay attention if she would try a little harder to verbalize her need for support at that time. I also told her there was no guarantee I would be able to drop everything at that moment but that I would talk as soon as I could. I will also be getting some notebooks for everyone so they can write it to me if they need to.
CPS has decided that when mom gets released today that the kids can go right home with her. There is no immenent danger.
I have my concerns about that, but have some comfort that they will be here tommorow for the holiday and then back this weekend, if mom is able to go to work.
S, does not want to go home. He is afraid that nothing has changed and everything will remain the same. He wants to stay here with me. I have told him I would talk to mom and see if he can spend a few extra night until he feels a little bit better. The only problem I see with that is the fact that he does find his comfort, safety and security in my home and he can't stay. He has to deal with going home.
E, has not expressed her feelings on going home. The one big clue was when I told her we would be picking mom up today and then going beck to their house and she asked if she could stay tonight. This is from the child who always wants to go home because she is 15 and likes the freedom she gets there.
M, has been consumed with reading. She is letting some emotion out
, but for the most part is trying to stay in her perfect little world.
As if things were not bad enough. One of their neighbor "friends" started a rumor at school that their mom had overdosed on her medication, sliced her wrists and was dead.
E wants to kick her a**. I told her that would do no good and please not to get into anymore trouble in school. She has enough problems there. S does not want to go to school on monday and is having a hard time with what was said because he has never thought of that possibility and now he has. He is even more scared than he was before. M, is in her perfect world still.
I have expressed my concerns to CPS and am not done. I reminded the supervisor last night that emotional abuse does not leave a "bruise". There is now an open case but for now the kids are going home for now as if nothing happened and CPS will be enjoying their long holiday weekend. I know they have worked very hard for the last few days (talking to me from their home on their time off). I am just not comfortable sending the kids right back with mom and I do have my concerns. I hate due process. I am lucky to have had a long working relationship with the main people involved and I have been given phone numbers if I need someone.
As if all of the emotional issues are not enough. I have my home re-certification in 5 days. I have so much to get done.
I think I will stop back up to the office this morning and let them know what S has expressed about going home.
Thanks for listening and for all your support.