Hey Jackie! Hey Everyone!
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I think we do have a time machine.. we can have conversations with ourselves
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Wow! That's a powerful answer and a true one. I hadn't noticed it before but I haven't really conversed with myself about all this. I've just sort of been reliving it... rat-a-tat style...like disjointed memories...like an amnesia victim remembers. But I don't suppose I've discussed with myself from a sane, bi-partisan point of view. Discussed it as if I'm someone else in here talking to me. Huh. I'm wondering if that has to do with all those years of coming back from institutionalization. You know....the old....if you talk to yourself you're nuts routine.
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This popular recovery concept refers to the fact that regardless of our age, we each have a young child within us with all the feelings, fears, complexities, simplicities, and needs we had when we were that age.
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Yeah and that voice says, "Please find a way for this not to happen! Find a way!! Find some way!!" And always under that dang god forsaken clock!! I am going to start an organization called DTIC; death to industrial clocks!! And my first dictate will be to destroy all little white metal-rimmed industrial clocks! They will all now have to be pink or blue.........uhmmmmmmmm.....that was a Fruedian slip. Never mind! They will now have to be gold with purple faces! There!
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I can remember coming to the conclusion that some of us are addicted to our pain
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Yeah. I think I've used things as a blanket. A sort of "I'll look at this by not looking at it and so then I looked at it, sort of insanity.
And Jackie, I'm sick of it!!
And you're right about what you wrote about the 12 Step dogma. I had inquired about starting an ODAT in here, but the AFG was all up about using CAL on non-AlAnon forums. I had to site this and credit that. For crying out loud!!!
Sheesh!!
In the meantime, tonight I will have a conversation with myself about how this all feels, even though the answer scares me.
Love you guys!