[joanr]

I just wanted to send "hugs" your way. I can understand how you feel. I know I would feel the same way. I tried for years to have my first son and then hoped for another miracle to which God Blessed me with my Guatemalan miracle.

Even my sister-in-law with her 3rd was very unhappy about her surprise 3rd child. She said after he was born she fell so in love and could not imaging not having him.

Things will come together and you be an awesome parent.
Best wishes