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Originally Posted by lovemy2boys
Thanks, startedover. I'm just feeling so overwhelmed... 
How did I get here??? I mean, I know how I got here, but how could I LET myself get here?
Even the small goals seem so out of reach...I exercise, then sabotage myself by eating junk...
I don't want to be the fat mom...I don't want to be the fat wife...I don't want to be the fat WOMAN!!
But I just can't seem to stop myself! I mean, if I needed to lose 15 or 25 or even 55 pounds, I could say "ok - there's the light at the end of the tunnel".
I can't see the light right now. And the holidays and the stress I'm under right now make it even worse.
Sorry to dump, guys...just really feeling down. |
It's so hard not feel discouraged when you have so much weight to lose. Believe me, I know.
I also wonder how I let myself get so heavy. The person in the mirror is not me. That can NOT be the way I look, it's not the way I think I look. KWIM?
I finally got tired of being the fat woman in the room. The fat mom, the fat wife, just like you said you felt. I got tired of walking into a room and looking around to see if there was possibly anyone there heavier than me.
In April 07, I made a decision to finally be healthy. Since then I have lost 63lbs. It has NOT been easy. There have been weeks when I gained instead of lost. But the losing weeks far outweighed the other weeks because I did not/have not let myself get discouraged this time.
As you know, we just lost my MIL due to cancer. It has been a long stressful month, to say the least. I have gained 6 lbs and have not been able to budge those pounds. Talk about a major rut!
That was until this week! I have lost 4lbs and now have 2 more to go! To me, that is a major accomplishment and gives me the encouragement I need to lose the rest of the 53 lbs I have to go. YEP, 53 more lbs. And thats after I finally lose the last 2 I regained! So you see, it can be done. You can do this. WE can do this. It won't be easy, it won't be fun, but the end results will be so worth it! With the encouragement from fellow AMOMS, hearing about their losses, feeling and seeing your fat cells melt away(get ready to go shopping girl, your gonna need some smaller clothes!!!) and most importantly, with the help from GOD, YOU can and YOU WILL become a healthier you!!!!!