it has been a very long weekend.
E, 15 has blamed herself for mom being hospitalized. She thinks because of her recent behaviors that is the reason mom got sick. She is not someone who opens up easily. I have been fortunate that she has found comfort in talking to H, just recently placed with me.
M, 13 has broken down several times. She is trying to hold it together the best she can. I am always telling her it is ok to let it go. She likes to maintain the everything is fine and perfect attitude.
S, 11 has also broken down a few times. He has taken more the attitude of I'm going to be here for a while I'll go unpack my stuff.
I have also had issues with JT this weekend. It finally hit her that her brother and sister don't live here anymore and she misses them dearly. She has been an emotional wreck.
H has been sick all weekend, running a fever. Luckily there have been enough people in the house so that she always has someone offering to hold and feed F.
As for me I am holding my own and just trying to be there for each of them. It has been hard though. I went from having one kid to 6 in a matter of two days. I have cried with each one of them but tried to keep the brunt of my emotions to myself. When I need a little bit of peace I ask H if I can hold her baby for a little bit. It is amazing what an infant can do for you. She is so sweet and peaceful. She can change my mood in a heartbeat.
Today will also be a long day waiting to find out if the kids are coming into care or not. E doesn't want to go to school. She is afraid she will not be able to concentrate, they will say they are going to call mom and she will loose it. I will see how she is this morning.
Well thanks for my morning therapy session (ha, ha). I think I needed that to keep my sanity.
Please keep all of us in your prayers. I will update when I am able to.