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It does get easier, the pain never competely stops, but you learn how to cope. And you'll have good days and bad days. Counseling really helped me sort through my feelings after the adoption, but I didn't start going until about a year after. I do feel happy that my son is probably very well cared for and loved, but it still hurts. I got really jealous of teenage moms, who kept their babies, and were doing okay. I still get jealous sometimes.
And people will expect you to bounce back, but remind them that you can't. My parents wanted me to be the old me, but I couldn't. I was really withdrawn after and depressed, for a long time. My son's adoption is semi-open, but became closed at my parents wishes. I wish I did get to see him, or hear updates, as hard as it is, I think it's easier than not knowing at all.
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*Alison* 
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