[AlisonMarie]

I am sort of obsessed with one of the kids where I work.

I found out he was adopted a year ago, and of course, became super curious. His birth mom was 15 like I was when I gave my son up, he has green eyes like me and freckles, he was born around the same time as my birthson, even the same age, and I find myself thinking, oh, he must be my birth son. Of course, I know it's highly unlikely. He doesn't REALLY look like me or the birth father. I think it's just a coincidence, but I am almost annoyed by my obsession. I look for his mom when she brings him to school, I try to get information out of her, I watch him, wondering if I'll see something that awakens a memory or something. And I know, if I found out he wasn't my birth son, I'd be really upset and emotional about it. At this point, I've almost got my hopes up that it could be him......I know he was adopted by someone who didn't live far from me.

I wish I could find something, to give me some clues as to where my birthson could be. My parents handled the adoption through a private lawyer, and I have snooped into my parents things so many times trying to find anything I can on the adoption, but no luck so far. I am not even sure I WANT to know right now. But this obsession I have is making me want to find more answers, so I can stop thinking every child I meet born around the time my birth son was, could be my birth son!

Has anyone else, who doesn't know where their birth child is, started thinking a child you met could be your child? I feel so weird and crazy about this.....