[Jody M]

I am so sorry to hear about you birth mother's death, so painful to know that you can never have that face to face reunion in this lifetime. I am a reunited adoptee with my birth sisters and found out my birth mother died when I was 18. Of course I grieved for I realized my search had been way to late for meeting her. But in my faith journey I realize that God's ways are not our ways and He alone knows the reasons. I know that she struggled with alcoholism, was homeless when she died and that at 18, I would have been so horrified,confused and likely shamed and not able to separate her circumstances with my own identity. I hope that someday in heaven I will know of her, but I trust God with that. I do treasure her photos and am full of gratitude that she carried me 9 mos, even though at the time she struggled with cancer and a difficult marriage and home life. May God give you peace. I embraced the verse in the bible, Grieve, but not as those who have no hope.
Blessings, Jody