Where do I go from here?
So, it's been 2 days. 2 days since I left the hospital and my son. I placed him for adoption. I got to spend two wonderful days with him beforehand in the hospital. And I have been crying for two days. Every time I picture his cute little face it makes me cry. Every time I see my boyfriend (who is his father) I cry. Every time I see his picture, hat, blanket, or baby things I cry. I have been told it gets easier with time, but I know it will never go away. I am sad. I want him back in my arms. I chose an open adoption. I got to name him. I will get to visit him several times a year. But it's not the same. I am making a scrapbook, and having an engraved locket made with his picture, to try and ease my pain. But it's so hard. Where do I go from here? How can I stop crying?
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