[cantbuymeluv]

I went ahead and did the bonding assessment. AFTER crying, thinking, dreaming, rethinking, asking everyone I knew, and talking with my attorney and a VERY great person on the inside of the State..............I did it. I know that the fp's will have a greater bond, but our point was not that they HAVE one but that HE is bondable/attachable. AND that he DOES have a bond with me also, just on a smaller scale. I have gone above whatever else they wanted from me. So why look like I am trying to hide anything? BESIDES they were having it done NO MATTER what and IF I didn't get my say so then it would ONLY be their words and nothing about me.
IF all else fails, we can hire another psychologist later but I HOPE and pray I did the right thing. OF course when my nephew saw me he said my name twice and got off of foster mom's lap to run to me and almost knocked me over THAT is a GOOD thing, he does know me and in a posititve way too The questions and surveys were no fun and only God knows what they will come up with but at least a GOOD report will be about how he does respond to me. HEY we take a positive WHEN we can get it LOL

I am very scared but praying so hard and looking for a GREAT civil attorney that specializes in suing the Government. I did NOT want to go here but it seems as things go on............I need to be prepared. I have NOT given up and have done a LOT but worry still. I have started a blog and will start working on new legislation as soon as I can review procedures. A class action suit? I think about all of the OTHER children who have lost their families and my heart hurts!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NO WAY is this right!
So for now I am going to keep my letters to the powers that be circulating and keep drawing attention to myself.
I want to put MORE information out there for family members who need information and help navigating through the system. WE were never told that a foster parent COULD fight us, NOT until it was too late and even then we have learned more from other people than we have from the SW on my nephews case. I don't get responses to letters or calls unless I call many times
THANKS for listening.